June 23, 2017

Hannah's Birth Story

On June 7th I went in to see my OB for my 39 week ultrasound and cervix check. This entire pregnancy I was planning on a VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean) and my doctor was on board. The plan was to strip my membranes during this visit in an effort to induce natural labor. But that plan failed as I got some discouraging news: not only was I completely closed and baby was sitting high, but I also learned that although baby's head was down, she was in a posterior position, or "sunny side up." This position makes for a long labor (with lots of "back labor"), a high chance of c-section and it happened to be the same position Adam was in, which is partly why his birth resulted in a c-section. My doctor told me I could try spinning babies to get her to turn, and that she may end up turning during labor anyway. But he was pretty clear throughout my pregnancy that he didn't want me going past 40 weeks for a VBAC, both because your odds of uterine rupture increase (bigger baby) and the success rate decreases. So I basically had a week to see if my body went into labor on its own before the 40-week mark (ideal situation), or I'd have to decide if I wanted to induce labor (which also slightly increases your odds of uterine rupture) or schedule a c-section.


June 7, 2017

Baby Wise and the Ferber Method

I know this post is not for everyone. To begin with, if you don't have kids, words like Baby Wise and "the Ferber method' have no meaning to you, nor should they. If you do have kids, you're probably aware of these methods and know the controversy that surrounds them, and you may not agree, which is fine. However, these are the methods we used with A and I plan on using them again with baby girl, but there's a lot that I forgot. And since I won't have the "luxury" to sit and read through these books again with a baby and a toddler, I thought I'd write up a blog post now to basically serve as my "CliffsNotes" for when the time comes.

June 5, 2017

Baby Girl's Maternity Photos

About a month ago we shot my maternity photos with Jordan Zobrist when I was 34 weeks pregnant. You may remember me mentioning Jordan late last year when she shot our family photos for Christmas cards. Once again, Jordan has done such a beautiful job with our photos; it was hard to only share a few, so here are a bunch of my favorites. If you want to check out my maternity session with Adam, you can find those photos here. I also linked up my maternity dress and a few of my other favorites at the end of the post. Thanks for stopping by!

June 2, 2017

Goodbye To My Only Child

I realize the title of this post sounds a little dramatic; Adam isn't going anywhere. However, with the impending arrival of baby girl, I can't help but get a little emotional about how much life is going to change. For the past two years, its been us two, just me and my buddy. Now, that whole dynamic is going to change. Of course I'm happy to be giving him a sibling, a built-in, lifelong best friend. I have 3 siblings of my own and could never imagine life without them. But I feel a little heartbroken for him at the same time, knowing how hard the change will probably be on him. For the last two years, he's been the sole focus of our attention, our only baby. Now that attention will need to be shared; there's going to be an adjustment period for all of us. I struggle internally, wondering if two years as the only child was enough? Did I betray him? Should we have had more time, or would that have made things harder? It seems like one of the constants of motherhood is that you're always second guessing yourself...

My sweet boy, thank you for making me a mama and allowing me to experiment, make mistakes and navigate my way through motherhood. I will forever cherish the time we had where it was just us two. My heart already aches for the day I have to say goodbye to you, knowing that when I return we'll no longer be a family of 3, and you no longer my "one and only." So for now, I'm trying to be fully present and find myself embracing your little hugs for just a little longer, because soon, there will be that final hug before your sister comes, and I just don't know how I'll be able to let go.

As emotional as I am, I know that you and your sister will be the best of friends and that you will love her dearly. I can't wait to watch you grow into your new role as "big brother". And even though that will be your new title, you will always be my baby, even if you're no longer "the baby" of the family. Your happiness will always be a priority for me, and I will always love you from the depth of my being. 

My sweet, sweet boy, "I'd choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality," I'd always choose you to be my first. (The Chaos of Stars, Kiersten White) Your sister is going to be so lucky to have you.


June 1, 2017

May Recap

OMG. It's June which means I'm officially due with baby girl this month! I can't believe in just a matter of weeks I'll be a mom of two. I can't imagine what that month's recap will look like LOL.
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